My First official Blog

Hey All.

I am going to start blogging I think, I have always expressed myself well through writing. I remember when I was 5, I used to make a secret hiding spot under my four poster bed, when I could FIT under there, and I used to write in my journal. I always enjoy my alone time, and this is a nice way to de-stress I feel like. I used to have a picture frame with a picture of my grandfather and I under my bed, along with some gum, and my diary of course.

My Nana (we're Italian, so she's a Nana) just told me last week that she was going through my old room and found some letters that I had written... "I was almost in tears!" She told me...and in my head I'm thinking the worst...what did I write? How much I hated her because she wouldn't let me go to the mall? I was nervous, she went on to say that I was so sweet and that I wrote about how much I loved her, and how she was always there for me and stuff like that. Phew, the bad stuff must be in the LOCKED diary! What kid didn't vent about how "mean" their parents were for grounding them, or who knows what else.

Here's a little background:

 My Grandparents took custody of me, such a blessing, when I was about 6 months old ( think, I never really got a straight answer). My Aunt was living at home at the time, so really I grew up as almost her little sister. My Grandparents are a GODSEND. I don't go a day without being Thankful to them. My Grandfather died when I was 7, and it was and is still very hard on me. He was the only "father figure"  I had, and I feel like our time was so short, that I missed out on that really. I mean, I remember some things, but not a lot...but for the time that I did have him, it was a wonderful time.

As for my Nana, she has been the best thing to EVER happen to me, and without her, I will be lost. I don't know what I will do when she passes. She has given me the strength to deal with life, she has taught me everything I know. She has made me independent. She has devoted her life to me.

Even though I am 23 years old now, she is always there if I need her. I talk to her everyday at 9:30 am. (Except for this week because she is in Punta Cana, DR! Lucky girl!) She is there if I need money, if I need someone to watch the kids I nanny for if I have a doctors appt. She's the best.